Testo Alone again Homeboy Sandman

Alone again

I woke up this morning in a house not a home
I woke up this morning I was all on my own
Since I woke up this morning I don’t know what I’m doing
I been all in my dome
Everything is unknown
Wonder if she’ll cooperate and stay away
How do I operate on the day to day?
And least last night I didn’t lay awake
I freed myself of the anxiety I couldn’t shake
But new anxieties that vie for taking its place
And make me feel ashamed of throwing shade are always taking shape
I swear I do my best to never give em space
But I feel like I’m gonna break
Sometim?s I need a break for goodness sake
I’ll just say it
I’m feeling r?ally scared
All this working on my spirit’s really working on my spirit

NOW I'M ALONE AGAIN
AFTER THINKING THAT ID NEVER BE ALONE AGAIN

Couple specifics and details
I've been deleting pictures and emails
And texts
And trying not to feel stressed each moment not knowing what’s next
In truth I didn’t know what’s next before but having her arm around my neck would help me rest assured
But now that ship has left the shore
For sure
I hope she don’t feel that I don’t love her no more
I hope she don’t feel she’s not worthy of love
Might have had a shot at keeping her trust
If I hadn’t been so worried about all the above
But
None of that helps me now
Being that i done gone and messed around
And met my wife I built a life of days and nights of care around
To then proceed to tear it down
NOW IM ALONE AGAIN
AFTER THINKING THAT ID NEVER BE ALONE AGAIN

Frontline without no shield
It is way deeper than preparing my own meals
But daily I’m reminded at least she won’t put my stuff away someplace where I won’t find it
Still often times I think of life and wish I could rewind it back before I lost it ‘fore I had to find it
I wouldn’t be despondent
Being happy is the object
I could always learn the way to make a omelette
I fear she’s the last of the cuties that won’t only do me for diamonds and rubies and stuff
And I got no one to go to the movies wit but maybe I been going to the movies too much
And plus I’m dag near forty
But thinking that way feels so corny
I’ma just try to enjoy myself
But this is not where I saw myself

ALONE AGAIN
AFTER THINKING THAT ID NEVER BE ALONE AGAIN