Testo Pain is all we know Phora

Pain is all we know

Pain is all we've known
[?]
Wouldn't we be better off alone?
Burnin' lights in the sun
Salvation is so close [?]
Darlin', I hope you understand
Yeah (Boy fifty)
Uh

When I was young, I was abused as an adolescent
By a man my mother loved, but she was too defenseless
A prisoner inside my home, I never felt protected
The scars and bruises that I wore, they told me, "Just accept it"
Accept the fact that I was helpless, couldn't understand
The pain and trauma as a child, my blood was on his hands
Father nowhere to be found, I tried to be a man
I tried to talk to God, I needed love, it wasn't in His plans
I closed my eyes and try to sleep away the thoughts
But the more I tried to run away from pain, the more it fought
All this anger in my heart, don't let it show, all I was taught
Since then I kept my feelings hidden, locked inside a box
And I started to question if they ever gave a fuck about me
Started to question their intentions and the ones around me
Started to question why this pain is all I know
Maybe I'm better off alone, this world is probably better off without me

Pain is all we've known
[?]
Wouldn't we be better off alone?
Burnin' lights in the sun
Salvation is so close [?]
Darlin', I hope you understand

Yeah
Habitual pain, we pass it down and we have no remorse
Traumatized from what I've seen, but I ain't have a choice
It's hard to love, I seen my family get destroyed
A world of sorrow in this life, it's somethin' I know I can't avoid, damn
Was always told the pain controls you if you let it
Was always told the first step is the acceptance
The trust you give, sometimes they use it as a weapon
Why is it always people that we love that hurt us? I don't get it (Fuck)
And truth be told, I question morals 'cause how these people do me
I never open up my feelings, it's detrimental to me
I ain't used to gettin' close 'cause how these people use me
And then they'll paint me as a villain, this shit so confusin'
I think about it, late nights, when I'm in bed
Close my eyes, but I can't hide the monsters in my head
My heart's drownin' in regret 'cause of things I should've said
Come take the bitter out my bones and rip my heart up out my chest, damn

Pain is all we've known
[?]
Wouldn't we be better off alone?
Burnin' lights in the sun
Salvation is so close [?]
Darlin', I hope you understand