Testo You're so vain, part ii The Dopamines

You're so vain, part ii

The swelling in my head
returns as a reminder
that I'm not out of the clear.

And all the nightmares
that I suffer while I sleep?
You might as well be standing here.

And all the times
that you said "I'm leaving",
I'm seething.

Because I know that when I turn
you'll be there,
still standing.

And every lie that had me
believing
keeps reeling.

Inside my head until the day
I drain it
permanently

What will it take
for me to jump first?
I know you'd love to see it...

And when I hit the ground
I know you'll be the one
to cry first.

Because I know my death
won't be enough,
you'll have to make it worse.

Yet here I stand,
here you stand, and I
can't stand it.

And if I have to kill you first,
I'll do it.
I swear it.

Cause prison's nothing
to this prison I'm in.
This world I threw myself in.

When did temptation yield a sense of respect for myself?

The swelling in my head
returns as a reminder that
I'm killing you today.

And the thought of my thumbs
pressed against your windpipe
makes the swelling go away.